Confessions of a Lost Gypsy

I have to fess up to something. I suck. Okay, not really since I believe all things come in their own time - but that's how I feel at the moment.

I have not maintained the integrity, much less the frequency, of the content on this blog. The intention was to track my inner journey, the thoughts inside, the good and bad...to find, try, and share any methods I encountered as I physically drove across the country. Why haven't I been able to maintain that intention? There are a few reasons, but without a doubt the biggest has been the fear of being judged as a weirdo, nut case, or generally dismissed as yet another corporate possibility who couldn't handle the stress. Hey - I'm no fool and realize that my beliefs, while growing in vague familiarity are still not mainstream.

Nonetheless, a big part of the trip was to do some soul searching and I figured I should take advantage of anything that might catch my attention along the way. Whether that was chanting in the moonlight, talking to horses, having my astrological charts drawn up, partaking in a Native American ritual, connecting to my spirit guides, or simply asking those I meet how they've come to find themselves where they are now - the idea is that I was on a bit of a quest for me.

While I was open to trying such things and have actually participated in a couple of them, I've been reticent in sharing. That's not honest and it doesn't feel good. A woman I met along the way described how she used to think one thing, verbalize something different, and have yet another feeling in her gut. She found a lot of relief when she was able to sync all three areas to match her singular truth. That made a lot of sense, so my next few blogs will be a recollection of some of the experiences I've enjoyed along the way.

Clearly the content won't be for everyone and that's okay - we are all on our own journeys and I completely respect that. Still, this is something I need to do...something I need to share. You on the other hand can chose not to read. Either way, I believe we draw to ourselves that which we can benefit from - so I plan on laying it all out there for you to pick from, regardless of what you may think or how uncomfortable it may feel to me because in the end I think there's an underlying lesson for me and quite frankly that's more important to me right now.

Huh. Maybe that last part is the first lesson ;)